Single: I Still Get the Calls (A and B side, October 2018)

I still get the calls

So we’re down by the pond, we’ve paid for our seats
to watch the Sunday special, but it’s not a show
not a show to please

It’s the last clump of trees still standing, in town
waving in, silence yet a while

My cousins from Port, sailed out to space
we stood at the cliffs tilted our heads
20 years ago

I still get the calls, they’re doing just fine
but they thin out in distortion day by day

And you will always be around me, shield me from the black winds
keep me in control
and you said you’ll guide us, guide us while we live another day

We shut down the west side, abandon the lake
but with the 4th generation of food
they said we’ll be, we’ll be safe and sound

I still get the calls, they’re doing just fine
but they thin out in distortion day by day

And you will always be around me, shield me from the black winds
keep me in control
and you said you’ll guide us, guide us while we live another day
and you said you’ll guide us, guide us while we live another day
in sunshine storm and thunder, I still get the calls, they’re doing just fine


A smile within

I leave you fumble in the dark
but there’s no need to say goodbye

I’m white bread, jam and a diet Coke
I’m the sunshine under snow
I’m nothing you can read or understand

Ohh, a smile within, deep pain

I’m the great shining darkness that will show you the way
back to the end where it all starts

I’m the first step at the very end of a circle of songs
to make you feel alright and twist your heart

Ohh, a smile within, deep pain

I leave, you fumble in the dark
but there’s no need to say goodbye

Album: Epilogue (2015)

Administration of despair

Did you hear the shots ring out this morning
blended echoes in our minds
leaving messages of terror on the streets
these sounds are postcards sent from hell

When the night comes we can hide behind these walls, from the administration of despair
reach out to me, and I won’t let you go, no I won’t let you go

This is a sweet but bloodstained carol
made of poison, love and fear
to the police and friends, sons, murderers and thieves
will we, will we ever be alright

When the night comes we can hide behind these walls, from the administration of despair
reach out to me, and I won’t let you go, no I won’t let you go

 

I still find it hard to breathe   

Bright neon light, guide us over dark fields and save
a little song for us, when the trail is a guess, and the time is a thief

Sometimes I travel safe, and the writing in my head
is covered in the crowd, sometimes I feel no fear, sometimes
I stand in hell

Not that I don’t know, no I know what counts here
but I still find it hard, still find it hard to breathe
but if you hold me tight, I promise to stay by your side
and we’ll fight away the fear, when we find it hard to breathe

This is the great escape, relentless in its search and gray
for a shattered band, one document short, the bloodsport of our time

Not that I don’t know, no I know what counts here
but I still find it hard, still find it hard to breathe
but if you hold me tight, I promise to stay by your side
and we’ll fight away the fear, when we find it hard to breathe

 

The rain kept on falling 

I’m still waiting for you, at the junction you said, at the grocery store
but the shops are all closed, shut down and gone, rebuilt into something you wouldn’t know
While the hours melt into a dream

And the rain, the rain kept on falling, and I was stuck in a smile
It’s hard to say why, while the rain, the rain kept on falling, now when all hope is blurred
vague almost over and gone

You know, you should know where to find me, I’ve still got my scar
I’m still wearing blue
and you still smile like an angel, I think, what’s in your hopes, are you still alive
while the hours melt into a dream

And the rain, the rain kept on falling, and I was stuck in a smile
It’s hard to say why, while the rain, the rain kept on falling, now when all hope is blurred
vague almost over and gone

 

Epilogue

And at the end, did you recognize your thoughts
they left shadows in your breath and vague prints in your eyes

And I floated up high alone, free from all the weight
and the strings that kept me down
they cut in my arms and legs and tainted my blood

You’re staring straight ahead, into the future and lost hopes
epilogues and dreams, conclusions tears and ends

I’ll see you whenever I want to, you might feel a breeze in your hair
so hold my hand one last time, and then let me go, and don’t be afraid
no nothing’s gonna hurt

Cause this is where sorrow in our hearts, relentlessly dark
breaks down and fades away
while I’m lying next to you, while I’m lying in your arms, don’t cry don’t fear no fear, don’t go

I’ll see you whenever I want to, you might feel a breeze in your hair
so hold my hand one last time, and then let me go, and don’t be afraid
no nothing’s gonna hurt

 

A darker shade of black 

Left a trail so deep, after a lifetime in hell
they retreat into a calm, and a dark
acceptance of time and the end of what we know

It’s cold when you look in their eyes, their claws are meant to hold
and to hold and to hold and to hold
but what they truly are, you’ll never know

Away, fade away
in a darker shade of black they fade away

They left for something to fill, a long time ago
found a way to the stars
end up as black holes descended from sky

Away, fade away
in a darker shade of black they fade away
lords of war and birds of death and pain
in a darker shade of black they fade away

 

Where it’s hard to wake up 

And I fell into this dream, a quiet and still
light, soothing and warm, rest in my bed

Hold, my head for a while, and tell me the truth
I might understand, it might slip away
so make sure to hold me near cause I’m where it’s hard to wake up

I reach for your hand all the time to tell you I’m here
keep flowers away, our blue songs alive, and the smile on your face
but it’s hard to wake up

And I see the tears in your eyes but don’t be afraid
this won’t be the end, you’re not losing me, no you’re not losing me
make sure to hold me near, cause I’m where it’s hard to wake up

And I fell into this dream, a quiet and still
light, soothing and warm, rest in my bed

 

Sunshine and trash       

Restless and scared of the night, dark deceptive and grim
but I still like the wind, I still like the wind
born in a light breeze, living a life, waiting for you, waiting for you

On these dirty heights, of sunshine and trash
forever and ever, on these dirty heights, of sunshine and trash

Languish here in the heat, a wolf pack on the run
from the truth and a dream, stuck in the mud
And while, while we go down, I try to look up over our hill
over our hill

From these dirty heights, of sunshine and trash
forever and ever, on these dirty heights, of sunshine and trash

 

The wind

But the wind still blows in my ears , I’m still around you
to hold your head up in the dark, to watch over you
and if you leave us today

I will still love you

Even if you break down and cry, even if you blame me for your trail
and hate me for your fate, even if you fall, and fall,
onto the ground

I will still love you
I will still love you

 

Doors, dreams and hearts

But evil left the door, slightly open to me, so that I could look around
scream goodbye and  thank you for the grief
he said I never had a hold, on you  no you are far too slick, but you are always welcome back
Godspeed, travel safe and watch your back

You will never steal my heart away
you will never steal my heart away
you will never shut me up, you can never throw back the pain
you will never steal my heart away

 

Bloody nights, tender death

Here I stand four miles apart
here I stand four miles above
but I can still remember the pain
and the pain most likely remembers me

But it’s over now it’s all over now, bloody nights tender death

Beholding time, and time, and time

But it’s over now it’s all over now, bloody nights tender death

 

Album: Lift the darkness (2012)

One hand on your shoulder

When thunder rolls into our street all the words are empty, and time is still
Just like the song from my old dream, not completely clear, not completely dark

He’s got one hand on your shoulder, waiting to take you away
Cause you don’t wave you drown
And the writing on the wall says leave now or die

But what are we supposed to do, but hold our heads high, while we fall
When we stand in the backyards of our time, cemented in the doldrums, eyelids of gold

He’s got one hand on your shoulder, waiting to take you away,
Cause you don’t wave you drown
And the writing on the wall says leave now or die

When thunder rolls into our street all the words are empty, and time is still

 

Count my steps

Woke up to the sound of bells, ringing in the day and my soul, and my soul
This void, should not be mine anymore, it cut me deep and and I bled
When we were young, we were young

So I told my sisters I love you, and I’m not gonna die, but home towns are meant to be safe, and I’m leaving now
Yes I’m leaving my part of the city, that was mine once but now reminds, us of deathsongs you burn in hell now
Tonight, tonight

These, these walls, count my steps if you want, but it’s not over

Hospitalized for weeks now, with reassurance but daunted thoughts, this instinct is not gonna slay me, tonight, not tonight
The drugs they fade in my veins, as I shiver the nights away, and away and away and away now
Tonight, yes tonight

These, these walls, count my steps if you want, but it’s not over

 

My white shirt’s red

There’s no wound that bleeds forever, there’s no one here, to break up the night
The road is clear the rain is falling, my white shirt’s red, looks slightly blue in the dark

If I die here, the night will keep us, alive and alive for one million years
If I die here, the night will keep us, alive and alive, tonight I’m alive

Dogs and trees run by our window, town by town we see them fade away
Looks like all our songs will save us, and lift the darkness off our backs

If I die here, the night will keep us, alive and alive for one million years
If I die here, the night will keep us, alive and alive, tonight I’m alive

 

Always on my mind (Writer: Johnny Christopher, Mark James, Wayne Carson Thompson)

Maybe I didn’t love you
Quite as often as I could have
Maybe I didn’t treat you
Quite as good as I should have
If I make you feel second best
Girl, I’m sorry I was blind

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn’t hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I’m so happy that you’re mine
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn’t died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied, To keep you satisfied

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

 

We’re coming back (Writer: Cock Sparrer)

We’re coming back, we’re coming back
We’re coming back to you
We’re never gonna go away again
Hold on a little longer, try a little harder
’Til we’re arm in arm together to the end

So remember, out there somewhere
You’ve got a friend, and you’ll never walk alone again

Don’t get worried, don’t get scared
We’re fighting to get there
Never doubt, we’re gonna get through
We’re gonna run, we’re gonna crawl, kick down every wall
It won’t be long we’re coming back to you

So remember, out there somewhere
You’ve got a friend, and you’ll never walk alone again

 

 

Album: 900 (2010)

Under its watch

Heal me now, at the end of this line
Where one hundred warnings, won’t make us unite
Ground, our ground, mistreated and sick
But the summers are green, green as your eyes
And the world keeps me under, under its watch

Decline, declined, we’ve built machines, to save us from us, ragged city dogs
In five men’s time from now, when my songs gone to hell, will we be in the sky?
And the world keeps me under, under its watch
And the world keeps me under, under its watch

And the world keeps me under, under its watch
And the world keeps me under, under its watch
Loraidigo
The world keeps me under, under its watch

 

900

The sun was up this morning, it was smiling at my wall
A brand new day to carry on the things we do
And noon’s a good time, to watch a day, die away

So I drank up my wine, prayed for redemption to come
The street was full of life I screwed my eyes towards the sky
But my doubt and pain, it lingered on

And all the storms came in that year, you held me hard in the cold
But all these monsters, they kept on coming back and I never knew how to mend
But you got out, yes you got out, you got out in time to heal

The world is in decline and it was stupid of me to think
That this steel town of ours would get away unhurt
They said 900 must go, and it won’t be the end

Tou said a warm breeze will come, and blow in your face
And leave, for somewhere else
Expect nothing, and you might, you might just get the world

 

You’re a saint

Got wild black eyes, to take you away
If there’s a new day ahead, I will cut off these chains, I want..
You moved away without me, years ago
Cleaning toilets in New York
And the photo of you gets thinner by the day

Hear the wind so soft in my ears, whispers I love you
And did you see, the lightning tonight, it was calling out my name
You’re a saint

El Salvador where were you, yesterday,
I got 18 on my chest
And we kill, getting killed, and we kill, were getting
Warm summer nights on the heights, looking down,
The ditch we all descend in,
And the trails of our bodies rolling down mark out our lives

Hear the wind so soft in my ears, whispers I love you
And did you see, the lightning tonight, it was calling out my name
You’re a saint

 

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Kom ta mig fram, ut mot gatornas sken
Till en sång fylld av kärlek, och till alla dom, som sitter där uppe bland moln
O tittar ner, på oss, i stålstadsbetong

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han sa hör när jag säger att Sandviken vinner i dag!

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